Hey Its official .. February ..the month of love is here ! My mind is filled with images of candy , chocolate hearts , perfumes and red roses !! Sigh !
I kick started the New year with great ado. But it was indeed hard to say goodbye to a piece of my heart and to a 108 days of happiness , laughter , tears , learning , healing , travel, loooong chats over chai ,hot cocoa under the stars , sharing blankets and memories in the moonlight and more !
My heart takes long to heal ! In silence and tears I sit to reminisce about the good times gone by . The clock that once ticked away relentlessly now seems to have been literally stuck in Time .I seek refuge in the only way I know .. Writing !!
I was in grade 6 . It was one of the most dreaded part of my day in school …essay writing! Our prescribed text book then was a mean looking , formidable Wren and Martin, red hard bound ,which enjoyed the iconic status of being the Grammar bible !
I tried really hard to read up essays from the book , the beginning , the body ( middle ) and the end . My grandfather gave me several simple topics as practice but after the first few lines .. a complete block , ideas did a vanishing act !Nothing further ! I always had to tear off several pages, they were shabby with more eraser marks on them than sentences !
I think he got tired .. no exasperated is a more appropriate word and soon fell asleep on the couch . I looked at him and felt a sudden rush of love. I thought of all the little things that he did for me , of how he struggled to help me cope , of how much he must love me to put his life on hold and keep the faith . I knelt on the carpet and rested my head on his chest ! After a while he opened his eyes , smiled , ran his fingers thru my hair and went right back to sleep ! That moment was magical .It did something to me .It did something for me ! It kindled a deep feeling within . I felt .. there is a human spirit that binds two souls together and this bond transcends everything we know ! It was palpable and as tangible as the air that we breathe .I felt the air that was in his lungs was now in mine . I learnt that our happiness lies in making someone else happy !
Every passing minute is yet another chance to turn it all around ! (Gratitude to Vanilla sky) I knew in that instant that writing did not need any of those super intelligent ideas or a sophisticated vocabulary ( that always eluded me ) All I had to do was to write what was in my heart!!! Needless to say someone got an ‘A ‘for the best essay !
Through this struggle was born a dream ,an ambitious dream to write ,first for my own self esteem and then to leave a little bit of magic for those like me .. bad handwriting, sinstocular vision and a borderline dyslexic!
So hermosos amigos … join me on this journey of random ramblings – of sounds , letters and words , of thoughts that go way beyond the pedestrian and of seemingly inconsequential moments that will warm your heart and fill your soul with the joy of living !! Te veo pronto !❤️💖